Uh,very silly of me to think that i can escape that..i am extremely foolish..stupid girl..

Alhamdulillah

I think my prayers to Allah has been heard..all my worryings and problems have been fading away..i feel so blessed..i am definitely grateful..Alhamdulillah praise to Allah..bersyukur sgt..so,now i don't have to think about that one thing anymore..i don't feel any more guilt..i don't need to worry..i am soooo happy..Allah the Almighty..how easy He can change a person just like that..

Revelation

I think i just realized something..i think i can see things clearly now..i can think rationally..i hope i will make the right decision..the right move..i don't want to have any regret..

Only He,the Almighty who knows how bad i'm hurting deep inside right now..ya Allah,please give me strength to live on..

Can't sleep

I guess i need sleeping pills..i always have trouble sleeping..i'm not sure since when i developed this thing..but it sure ain't doing any good..i'm constantly having headaches due to sleep deprivation n not enough rest..it is tiring..i'm not sure whats the cause of not able to sleep..mayb i have a brain dat cannot stop thinking..haha..i do admit i do think a lot..sometimes i think way too much..
Tonyt..like the rest of the other night i can't sleep..when i'm about to doze off immediately my brain pick up something new to think about..brain,please rest..i need rest!!!i think i need to search n experiment ways to make me sleep..
I do admit the way that i am now as a person a part of it is based on experience..i do had experienced a break-in at my old house..that incident is one of the reason i can't really have a good night sleep..i can easily wake up if there's even a slightest sound..that incident had made a such a light sleeper..i hate it..i always woke up in the middle if the night..i don't why..i can't really fall asleep if there's a disturbing sound..its hard..its hard to not be able to sleep..it is frustrating..i need help~

Holidays~

I'm on holiday..company gave us 1 week of holiday for the chinese new year..however,had nothing better to do than just lying ard doing nothing..and definitely thinking..ppl always say do not regret..don't ever haf any regret for the things that happened..instead,be strong and move onn improve..learn from mistakes..however,i have a lot of things i do regret doing..particularly this one thing..i regretted it every time i dis it..however,i don't have the courage or energy to fight it and stop doing the things i've done..i definitely know i'll end up hurting..and as a matter of fact,i am already hurting..i will never stop hurting unless i'll take a leap of faith and say enough is enough..mayb at that moment i'll hurt the most..however,i will be able to move on..i need to take dat..i need encouragment..i need help..i need ppl to tell me that everything's gonna be okay..i need dat kind of assurance..

I thought everything settled..everything stopped..i guess its not..urghhh..i am super stress!!!

New aquaintance

Getting to know new peole is very interesting..the process that we go thru is definitely awesome..i can say dat i'm going thru dat process..the curiosity..the excitement..it is something dat u can't get any other way..
The fragile bonding u haf no idea the outcome..u'll never know what's going to hapen..the constant worrying whether u've crossed the line or not..the unstoppable questions flowing thru ur brain..i simply love it..i never thought getting to know other people can be this fun..mayb there more to that than just being aquaintances..mayb..who knows though..so,please don't ever stop getting to know other people..hihi